Aug 29 2012 5:44PM
Time to make important decisions, I know I cannot send a letter to Db, he cannot really read anyway, but I have been writing one in my head for days. Maybe actually putting 'pen to paper' is part of the journey I need to take.
Please know that I love you very much, and have done my best from the first day I met you, to do what I believed was right for you. My goal has always been to support you to become the best you can be, fulfil your potential, whatever that might be, and for you to be happy in your own skin, to believe in yourself and have the confidence to follow your heart.
You are a loving and sensitive young man with a great sense of humour.
Sadly you have also been seriously damaged by the neglect and abuse you suffered as a tiny baby. In a nutshell you are suffering from severe attachment disorder, trauma and dissociative identity disorder.
The attachment disorder shows itself in your controlling and rejecting behaviour.
The trauma and dissociative identity disorder shows itself when you attack me unprovoked and then have no memory of what you have done. You present as feeling you are being persecuted and have no notion that you are in fact the persecutor.
It is not safe for us to live together, so I have to be strong and try and facilitate you receiving the help and support that you rightfully deserve. I have to let you go. What you need is beyond what I can do for you, I have done my best for you and will continue to do so, just not in a conventional way.
You will be in my heart and soul every day and every time I think of you I will send an army of angels to support you on your way and give you courage to face what comes.